Always in my heart, Sim Mama

Hi, Sim Mama.

今天是第102天了，还是很想你 很想很想你

这篇blog的日期不懂都换了几次了 可是都还是发不出

我没有勇气写完

每次写到一半都哭到半死然后就放弃继续写

我到现在都还没梦到你

有时我在想你是不是在怪我在你生前不常去看你

我超级内疚的 我已经忘记最后一次去探望你是什么时候了 都是我不好 应该常去探望你的

我没有试过那么久都没有跟你见面的 很想你

他们都跟我说你已经解脱了 应该要感到欣慰 可是我做不到

你知道你去世那天我已经在四舅母家了吗

你知道我打算多一下就去探望你了吗

你知道我多内疚没有先去探望你吗

你知道我去探望你的时候握着的是你已经冰冰冷冷的手了吗

你知道我很想很想很想你吗

我的童年都是跟你和姨丈一起过的 我最美好的童年都是在你家过的

小时候的那些照片都是在你家，都是你帮我拍的

跌倒也要拍，吃饭也要拍，冲凉也要拍

无时无刻都拿着照相机帮我拍照

所以我有2大本的童年相簿

人家说在婆婆家长大的孩子最幸福，我也可以很大声地讲在阿姨家长大的孩子也是超级无敌幸福的！

谢谢你给我美好的童年回忆

现在少了你的阿姨家 已经不是我熟悉的阿姨家了

客厅的摆设换了 橱里面没有我的奖杯了 你的房间里面的摆设也换了 家里没有拖鞋声了 厨房没有歌声了 我也没有机会在厨房帮你炒菜了

我最喜欢的事是跟你和妈咪 阿敏 和姐姐妹妹一起在厨房帮你炒菜煮饭 一起笑 一起聊天 唱歌 那种欢乐温馨的气氛也没有了

前阵子又去了你的家，你厨房的东西我依然知道全部放在哪里

厨房的洗碗液我还知道在哪里，也还知道风扇的开关是第几个，知道你全部的厨房用具在哪里

有一瞬间还觉得会在你的房间找到你的身影，看你穿着黄色的睡裙·，红色的长裤，然后每次都笑你穿到好像Tom&Jerry的主人似的。

还有，你家的电话号码，已经变成最熟悉又陌生的号码了。

你知道吗，前几天妈咪突然又忘记你已经离开了，她不懂放在冰箱的东西还能吃吗，匆匆忙忙就打了你家的电话号码想要问你，打通了之后才发现到你已经不在了。。。你不在了，妈咪是最不习惯的人了，她的心事没有人能分享，有什么问题也不知道要找谁问了。

对了，还有你最担心的ah joe，终于要去读书了。你不必担心她会迷路了，她的宿舍离学校超级靠近的，完全是不会迷路的那种距离。如果你还在的话一定会带你去看她的宿舍和她的学校。就像你之前来参观我的宿舍一样。只可惜你没有机会再来参观我的学校，没有机会看到我戴四方帽了。虽然你参加不了我的毕业典礼，可是我一定会邀请姨丈来见证的，到时候你在天上一定要准时见证哦。

你在那边还好吗？看到你喜欢的邓丽君了吗？邓丽君开演唱会你一定每一场都到hor??我这种年纪会邓丽君的歌都是跟你学来的，哈哈。

你要好好的啊，不要再担心我们了，我们都会好好的照顾自己，虽然时不时想到你都会哭，但是我们都会好好的。你要乖乖去西方极乐世界，我们80年过后再见！希望80年过后再见你你的厨艺还是一样好啊，要再煮我喜欢的鸡蛋汤，紫菜汤，猪脚醋，nasi lemak给我啊，不要再食言了。

阿姨，你好好安息吧。要乖乖跟着佛陀，观世音菩萨走，不要走散了。跟着他们就对了，他们都是好人，会带你去好地方的。我们下辈子再续缘，下辈子我还要再当你的“小女儿”。谢谢你一直以来的照顾，爱你。<3 font="">

xoxo AgnesBoi

step into 21

HEY GUYS!!

Finally found my specialized field -- procrastinate. Lololl. 

Draft my birthday so long time and I think I had been draft it for half year. *Well done, Agnes*

I'm gonna update a quick post for my 21st birthday so that I able to continue for the next post.

My birthday was fall at exam week, unfortunately.
But big thanks to my family which purposely came to my place all the way from Penang to Kampar just to celebrate my 21st big birthday. *love you all*

They did a good job on gave me a surprise. When they shown up outside my dorm. I really surprised and that moment I mostly gotta teared out when I saw them. They even reserved a hotel room to help me celebrated my birthday.

(photos kinda blur don't care)

Mom and sis put much effort on this, my birthday book which contained lots of wishes and loves from my family members. Thanks again!

Wait, the story have not end yet.

At the same day, sis pakat with my Uni friends, to give me another birthday surprise.

Another success surprised, that's why I have trust issue. lololll.jk

they even did a big birthday card for me!

Thank you for shown up although it's hectic final week. Much appreciate.

My gang never forget my birthday although I'm not around hometown.

Aegi, phone me sharply on 12am to wish me and we chat for almost 2 hrs phone call.

Yerr, drew a card and my own cartoon picture for me.

Liya, recorded a birthday video for me.

Cim, baked cupcake and blew candles with me through video call for me.

Thank you all for still remember it's my birthday! love ya~

My boyfie, had prepared breakfast for me on my day, and a little surprise for me. *shy* （Oh wait, he's still not my boyfie yet when it was my birthday.lololollll）

The very first time I receive flowers in my life. Thanks boyfie.

Thanks everyone for the best wishes and the amazing 21st birthday that you all gave me! Much appreciate.

That's all for my birthday post.

I 'll try to keep this blog update.

Enjoy reading and have a nice day. =)

xoxo agnesboi

29032015

Hello peeps!! Blogging at a lazy Sunday afternoon make me feel so sleepy although I just wake up from nap. It doesn't make any sense!! Should have to start revision as final only left one month. Sigh! I hate exam!! But now, let's blog before anything else.

Finally have time to sit down and blog. Been busy like bee this few weeks as my year 1 semester 2 is going to end soon!! So damn exhausted!! Assignments, tests, presentation...... #UniversityLife  Feel so good after all these annoying things are done and I do have time for TVD!! Had a TVD marathon this few days and yeah, TVD's craving fixed! Catch up the latest TVD and can't wait for the new episode!


Felt so heartbreaking when Caroline lost her mom, that woman who always support her and protect her as well even she became a vampire and her mom was the sheriff of the town which suppose to protect the villagers from vampire. I teared on that scene when Caroline get in her mom's mind and create her a sweet dream before her mom passed away. I easily get teared when things come to family. I cannot imagine what if one day I live without my mom, my dad or my sis. I cannot live without them, they are my everything. My world will collapse if that day come to me, and I wish that time I could shut off my humanity, just like a vampire. ( obviously too much of TVD)


Still remember when I was a kid, I used to ask my mom lots of silly questions like "Mommy, where you go when you die??" " Can you please don't die and stay with me forever??"

One of the conversation that i couldn't forget in my life.



"妈咪，我怕我死过后我不敢下地狱"



"不用紧，到时候我陪你."




Silly question but with a harm answer. Thank you mommy, Love you mommy.

Recently people keep told Synin and I that we look more alike now. Err.....I not sure is it a bad thing or a good thing but I got a little happy when people told me this. Thinking back now, really quite lots of people told us that we look alike, some of them even thought we are twins. -.- *face palm*


I have to admit that it is the fact, that we look alike. Sometimes when I see Synin's photos at the first sight I'll thought it is me, and start wonder since when I took that photo, then after that I was like "Ohh, that's sis! No wonder look so familiar like me! Why she look more alike me now??How dare she??" *then immediately whatsapp her and we start argue through whatsapp again.* 
Typical us. Hahahah!

Even mommy said we look alike after we have the same fringe now. (Don't copy me please~~ XD)

Some photos of this semester's presentation.

Our very first time on formal wear.

with another subject's groupmates.

love this random pic taken by groupmate

Stop here and I'm gonna continue to catch up my TVD series! Byeee!

xoxo agnesboi

Quick update

HELLO HELLO!!

Guess who's back to blog?!! It's me!

TA-DA!

I just realized that I didn't blog anything on 2015! So this will be my first blog on 2015!

I'm so sorry for my lack of update recently, I'm not that busy with my university life till i have no time to update but the fact is I'm lazy to do so. =X  Feel so sorry for not to update especially when i saw the slightly increase of the number of viewers even i didn't update it.

Okay, Quick update for January. I went to Singapore again. Nah, I'm not the one who have boyfie stay over there, that's my sis! shh.... Went there to countdown for 2014/2015 with my kors and their friends! Only one word can describe this trip, FUN!!! We sing k till midnight, we went to MBS countdown, we had seafood as our dinner and it cost $600++ dollars, we ran through highway road....etc. Everything is so fun and I'm so blissful to know & have them in my life! Always like to hang out with the whole gang!

lots of people said we look same! some even thought we are twins!!

Visit to garden by the bay and that place is such beautiful!!

and the night view at mbs is amazing too!

a.k.a food trip!!

see you guys next time!!

And ya! Since cny is just around the corner, I had decided to dye my hair to dark color! My hair look healthy nowww!!!! 

I love my hair color!!!

Stop here! lots of assignments waiting me!! 

Stay tuned!!

xoxo agneboi